First of all, thank you for your incredible input on the Hypnobirthing issue! I can’t tell you how much it means to me.
Ben and I can now breathe a huge sigh of relief because we’ve made it through the first trimester!
Of course anything can happen, but the fact that we’ve gotten through the first 13 weeks without an issue and heard the heartbeat [!!] significantly increases our chances of continuing to have a perfectly healthy pregnancy.
The baby is now the size of a peach and I’m definitely feeling it. Although most people say they can’t tell yet, I’m really starting to see a difference in the mirror and feel a difference in the way my clothes fit. I’ve been most surprised to find that I feel most changes happening in my [higher] waist area rather than my lower abdomen.
Also, although my breasts are still larger than I’m used to, I’m glad to report that they’re no longer super sensitive. For a while it hurt just to wear a bra, so I’m ecstatic about this new development!
The Sweetest Sound
Last Thursday Ben and I went in for our 12 week check-up with Kaiser [which will probably be our final clinical visit]. Because we declined an ultrasound at 8 weeks, they offered to let us hear the baby’s heartbeat via doppler at week 12.
The doctor lubricated my lower abdomen and said that my uterus was definitely protruding the way it should be at this point in the pregnancy. Then he held a little plastic machine a few inches below my belly button and the three of us waited, my heart floating in mid-air [what if I’m having a hysterical pregnancy and there’s nothing actually in there?].
It was probably less than thirty seconds before the sound filled the room – the unmistakable woosh-woosh of a heartbeat, quick and steady. Strong and healthy. I lit up with excitement and sat there for a minute just taking it in.
There’s really a baby in there… A little being that Ben and I co-created, with little organs and ears and toes. This is really happening… I’m carrying and creating a person… and I’m going to be a Mom!
To be completely honest [and ridiculously sappy], it was the single most beautiful thing I have ever heard. All my fears about the pregnancy drifted away and it truly sunk in that this little baby and I are on an incredible journey together that will last the rest of my life.
The doctor looked me in the eye and said the baby sounded perfectly healthy, that the heart rate was between 160 and 165 beats per minute – normal for 12 weeks – and that everything was progressing beautifully. To give me a gauge on how fast the baby’s heart was beating, he moved the doppler a few inches to catch one of my main arteries, and the woosh-woosh dropped down to less than half the rate of the baby’s.
Before then, people kept telling me to talk to the baby, read to her and play her music, but it just didn’t feel right – or real – yet. After that appointment I couldn’t stop holding my belly and talking to her has followed naturally. I just feel so much more connected to the little one now that I’m positive she’s in there, growing happy and healthy.
So Long, First Trimester!
I hate to jinx it, but I’ve actually been starting to feel a little better lately. My energy levels are slowly starting to rise, I haven’t experienced sciatica/lower back pain for a while, and I actually feel motivated to get back to a solid training and exercise routine. Of course, once the nausea goes away I’ll be the happiest hapai woman ever!
[Still deciding whether or not these work…]
It’s been really nice to have a break from teaching TurboKick, but I definitely miss getting a good workout in every other day and seeing all my students. It’ll be nice to get back into the routine in a week or so. In the meantime, I’ve been walking about an hour a day around our hilly neighborhood. Soon yoga and weights will be back in the mix, too.
While it was great to have visitors in town, going out to eat so often definitely did a number on my digestive system. I’m happy to eat most of my meals at home again, where I’ve been getting my veggies [hooray!] and healthy whole grains in. My appetite is back – which is probably what has helped me make my way back up to my conception weight – but my tummy fills up quickly now, making my meals small and frequent [I’m often hungry again just 30 minutes after my last meal]. It’s nice to be able to focus on nutrients that the baby needs now, rather than just what will make my tummy feel alright.
Even through the all-day nausea, unexpected debilitating fatigue and mood swings, I have loved every single moment of this experience. The first trimester has been wonderful to me and there is already so much love surrounding our little one. I’m so grateful for this journey and am excited to see what the next two trimesters bring!
Today is absolutely gorgeous and Ben and I are off on an adventure [I’ve got to make the most of my time with the hubby while he’s on vacation]! Have a beautiful day!
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